Till now , i don't have an accurate plan about my future . Is that a good quality or its a negative one . I am not even sure about it , i go with the flow of life like a stream . It is taking me somewhere , always unexpected happens and it's also a kind of happiness . Sometimes i feel i am the only person with zero happiness in life , but other times it's like i am the most happiest one . It makes me feel like a heaven , at times a hell.
I like to b alone . I am fond of loneliness . I am the true self , when i am alone . I don't always try to please people . I act accordingly as i feel or my heart or brain says . I don't intentionally hurt people , but most of the times it happen. I am not a person with more expressions . I can control my emotions easily . The difficult part of my life is that , i go for the people or things , who doesn't even think about me and I usually never mind the people who is there with me often. I understand the thing , but i am not able to change it easily . I think it's also a kind of love , i feel that it's ok to be like this . But i should take care of the people around me also , i should work on it . And to love someone u need not get permission right .. it's ok if they don't love u back . I believe that everything in life is dependent on love .we do everything bcoz of love . And also most importantly I consider is love . My parents , they sacrifice more for me , all i can do now is love them back as much as i can . I become weak in controlling my emotions , when related with my parents . All i want is their happiness .
If somebody asks a question like what is most important in your life ???
The answer is may be , it's a known fact that it's my parents . Other than that , i consider obviously the people in my life .. like my friends , relatives , people who neither come under this list etc..
Decency is something that u control urself and act accordingly others will , according to me . Life is full of mysteries . We meet many different people and things that is desirable or undesirable happen each day .
Everyday i think of so many things .. Today I understood that, once i was a best loved person of so many people whom i never appreciated . I feel guilty for it .. I never felt or understood their value .
It's true that when we grew older we start recognising things and valuing it .
Now ..... Best loved is just a word in my life . I never use it or it neither has a meaning in my life .
I am trying to go to my past life which was very beautiful and i was my true self then. I never tried to hide anything . Always completely expressed .
This part of my life is somewhat stressed and not as enjoyable as past .
Love ? Love won't come for reasons , if u love someone , u will love everything in them , even though that is not attractive or something beautiful . If love comes with a reason , it will disappear when the reason vanishes . The love might be on anything , that might b a person , thing , place... Whatever .....
I think that everything happens for a reason . Not always our plans work out in life .
Accept the truth and move on . Nothing happens even if u stand in the same place where something or someone left you .
I think the reason behind all these discoveries of kajal, eyeliners all is that , people want to hide their pain behind that . It's our eyes that reveals us outside .so if we make that eye attractive , then no feelings will b seen outside.. only thing is that it's just beautiful.
The beauty of life lies within ourselves . Ur happiness resides in you and also ur sadness too .. It matters what u choose either to b happy or to b sad.
I love loneliness but had never experienced , but once i had it .. Actually that is awesome . U spend the time for you when u r alone .
I feel that it is not necessary to poke your nose into all the matters . If it concerns you , obviously it's necessary to think about it . If it doesn't bothers you , then just leave it .
I am a good listener rather than a speaker . It's very important to listen people , it's a part of respecting .. All these are my stupid thoughts and everything is based on my perception not everybody can accept or relate to it .
Actually I am missing someone a lot . I want me back , the normal me , the perfect me , the happiest me .
"Move on from the place where your self respect is lost " . I know this well . But i am not able to do it now , more than my dignity i consider love . It's also actually not good to disturb people who don't value you.
I used to analyse my life frequently to understand the things that makes me happy and sad. I am the reason for my happiness and sadness , but , i always choose to be sad by making some sort of stupid decisions .
I don't have any well-wishers or people to guide me or help me in my difficulties . I face everything alone and i am alone .
Yeah .... I am alone .
I know that the people i value lot don't even consider me . Not all , but some.
I am trying to quit from everything and that day is not so far. Life is teaching me and taught me so many good and bad lessons .
We become satisfied or aware of the facilities what we enjoyed earlier either when it is lost or when we move to a different place .
Some people are complicated . I want to run away from all the complicated people in my life .
The best revenge is " love someone unconditionally and leave them " .

Most of the people smile outside with lots of sorrow that killls them inside.
Actually i am a irritating idiot for most of the people . I know that well but not able to change it .
I have made decision to change myself. It's not possible immediately , but from now i will take necessary steps to change . The thing you fear the most , do it immediately , no matter how big or small it is.
" Accept and move on " ........... This would be my change from now.
Only the most beautiful things could be broken in due change of time . The most beautiful state in this world is being loved. The people might fade from our mind but the memories will never go.
There is no point in loving someone who doesn't love you back .
